The Runner

My name is Karly and I am a mom to two boys (9/08 & 6/10). I was active as a kid and participated in many sports during elementary school; specifically basketball (which I loved), soccer, and track & field. Once I got into high school, I was very intimidated by the amount of students–imagine my 9th grade class had more students than my entire elementary school student body–that I didn’t participate in any sports or activities. I think that is one of my greatest regrets in high school. I doubted myself and, looking back, I think I could have done great things had I set my mind to it. But I digress.

I struggled with depression, self-mutilation and disordered eating throughout high school. I gained a substantial amount of weight when I was on antidepressants in 10th grade and that only fueled my issues with self-image, self-worth and self-confidence. By the end of high school, I was on the fast road toward a full blown eating disorder. I went through an initial assessment at a local eating disorder clinic but I wasn’t truly ready to get better so I never pursued it. I believe one of the reasons I was set off was I would have been diagnosed with ED-NOS (eating disorder not otherwise specified) which in my mind meant I wasn’t sick enough to have a real diagnosis/label so I didn’t need help.  I’m not sure if I would have stuck with the help had they diagnosed me with anorexia nervosa but I will say that being labeled as ED-NOS instead made me feel like a failure. Those of you who have struggled with an eating disorder may understand where I’m coming from there. I fell deeper into my eating disorder and embraced it and it consumed my entire being. I have worked through my disordered eating on my own with the support of my husband and a few friends and, though I’ve had a few regressions over the last few years, I consider myself to be ‘in recovery’. I still struggle daily but I have come a long way to get well and hope to stay that way.

After the birth of my second son, my body seemed to be taking a lot longer to bounce back compared to after I had my first son. I wanted my body back (or a better body) and I wanted to do it healthfully. Over the last couple of years, I’ve had several friends complete the Couch To 5K program. Seeing their progress going from couch potatoes to runners sparked my interest and I started talking about wanting to do it. Talking about it for over two years finally turned into actually doing it and my journey into running began on August 3rd, 2011. I ‘graduated’ from the C25K program on October 5th, 2011, and doing the program has sparked a love of a running I didn’t know I possessed. I’ve noticed I’ve been calmer, have had more patience, and have been happier since I started running. Then, near the end of my C25K training, I started getting ‘runner’s highs’. Oh man, those are awesome! I hope to continue my running trek and train for bigger and better things.

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